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we had another spat yesterday. if things do not work out too well in the end, i am going to be okay. like being in china, i never considered being there cuz it's gonna be there always, but, i've been there and found out its humor, its uniqueness and strangeness(quoted).. so i'm in china now.. this relationship is china.. blessings had been tons lately. all i have to do is wait for news. i wish there'd be better news one of these days. i cleared things out with someone yesterday. i'm good. we're good. then i talked(smsd) to kermit. haha. blergh. i sometimes wish i never had to deal with gelo and his jealous fits. and his immaturity. i wanted things to be okay. but, i am certain that we are not. one day, i will go. -- on a happier note: i gave away at least 12 shirts i no longer use. it's not about being charitable and that, but, it's about clearing my closet. and my place is more likely organized now cuz i've been organizing and rearranging since monday.. And though our life in this manifestation often turns out to be a bit of trash, still it is life and not just the extraction of a square root. //Fyodor Dostoevsky - Notes from Underground