of all the girl in me

got two new pairs of shoes yesterday! on a whim i wanted to go shopping because i bought nothing for myself the past couplah of months cuz all the monies would go to rent, groceries, and sundries and non for girly-ness whatsoever. and i didn't scimp this time, unafraid even to jump the gun nonetheless, i did not break the bank. i got a pair of cutout spectators and another strappy patent one like that of loub's.. i fell in love.. though i know that the comfort level is a mighty huge question to ask. other than that i got a new pair of top from bayo, hooded tank and yellow. ;p and dich and i were on fine dining sprees since sunday, kfc and mcdo respectively. by fine dining read: fast food. finished a whole book monday- it's entitled breakfast with tiffany- a memoir of an hiv positive gay uncle of his rebellious teenage niece. and i wanted to be irish and in new york after that. ;p living in this city now feels like being in high school, it's about fitting in and finding a niche. or at times trying so hard and so many things are thought to be uncool or unacceptable. unlike cebu or manila even where it's cool and perfect to be anonymous and poor and boho-like. poor and anonymous may be me, boho, i won't go to that. ;p davao on the other hand is like a chinese stir-fry veggies of all my being a girl.. and my being a girl this week entailed lunches of tofu and glutten and yoga only to be ruined by the long weekend skipping yoga and finding redemption or even solace in soda. i am so ill. i wish i can stick to a healthier alternative. i made trivelle with chicken curry and has been subsisting on it a few days in a row, it's sick. oh my imp will be home soon! he says no baby kaiwi in an attempt to pass that NO to the younger cousin. will spend the holidays in davao and cebu. bahala na si batman how i'll do it. but, i damn will. and i found a verse in the bible about my being in an abusive relationship in 07, it hit me hard in a funny way. proverbs went like- the heart knowing its own joys and sorrows and noone can partake/share that. i realized that must be wut's going in on my head 2 years ago and things were really fcked up and now i don't have to deal with it and live my life status quo. wow, that's a gem of thought i have there. ;p first day today. the whole training environment is a bit screwed. kevs.