earth chokes flowers

gelo made lunch for me today. everything is almost "normal" except the fact that i somehow lost a part of him now. but things are all right. keep on keeping on. :) he sang beauty and madness whilst we were lying in bed. it's odd- he has the chockity froggety frog voice but, i almost felt like he was singing the song for me. ♥ slept late. bryan, czar and i had fruit shake at lumers and had crispy pata and spring chicken- tab on bryan. we wind up going home at around 11. ♥ i ate nothing but lychee, chips, bacon and pimiento sandwich from gelo,raisins, and carrots today. haha. i have to go back to my old diet. ♥ i borrowed the above title from lit quote and modified it. ♥ i have work. and on deadline today. i still hold on to the fact that God honestly keeps all things sanely in order and He won't lemme fall apart in this awful boring city. Girl, Interrupted by Susanna Kaysen I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside.