thin line of sanity and vanity and sanctity

these last two weeks i feel outrageously panget. or maybe this week. cuz i honestly have ran out of dresses to wear or skirts.. i don't feel comfortable wearing jeans and trousers because i get self conscious of my ever burgeoning hips and thighs and abdomen.. aside from that i had this bad if not worst outbreak of zits.. they are not the ordinary zits but, the bad ones that hurt and are red and then would be ugly to look at.. i'm on the 3am shift.. grr..it's bad that i'm stuck on a weird shift for 2 days, it's worst because i'm gonna be doing uptraining despite the fact that i lacked 2 weeks of proper processes training- week1 and nesting week. and i've no logins.. & since in colossians it's gasgas i know, watevs your hands find you to do, do it heartily for Him.. so i shut my mouth up when i felt like throwing fits on someone today.. altho i did say, wut if i resigned when i go home? kaso lang how will i pay rent and feed me? haha.. mahirap ang anak ng dukha.. mahirap ang social climber at di talagang sushal.. cuz with the recessionista budget that's taking over every household now, a job can be a security blanket.. then again, johnny m. once told me that if you lose your job God won't let you go hungry.. it's just that you'll have to adjust your spending and cut down on excesses.. speaking of excesses.. i went to lush.. amazonian massage bar is on a buy one take one promo.. the assistant gave me 2 plastic tubs that i should fill in daw once i chopped the bars in chunks.. mine wind up melted.. so i popped them in the fridge.. ;p do i buy eat, pray, love? ambot. i found a copy. it's not pricey.. ;p food for thought:: Beauty's overrated. Only someone who took his own beauty for granted could have been able to say something so outrageously stupid with a straight face. - Little Children, Tom Perrotta and seriously, for someone who usually gets she's beautiful comment, it's odd how that person usually end up insecure..and tries to keep up with the joneses..