as right as rain

entry's backdated. :) 31 august 2007 yesterday was our second month. tis my 2nd day away from work and the internet. but, i'm writing. i haven't done anything productive since yesterday. i've been sleeping day in and out. waking up only to prepare our meals. whenever i'd think of chores, one thing burgeons after another, like mushroom, or like how a gremlin multiplies with a sprinkling of rain. and so, i wind up sleeping. my roof leaks so much when it rains. today, i finished TIS. i'd occassionaly wake gelo up with my sobs. he'd never understand how a book could make me ME. what would ppl do to be less lonely? God seems to be slipping away. and i feel like i am all by my lonesome. it's almost a month since we've moved into the new unit. i got used to sleeping next to gelo and it feels strange cuz last night and tonight i'd be sleeping alone, lights on. he's been my teddy bear, my night light, and he'd be the one to tuck me into bed. if our arrangements would change in the incoming months, i'd work my hardest for consistency in my life.. today we had pork barbeque-the kind you buy on the streets-smokey and yummy with city smog. and he brought home a bunch of ibus(suman to some-the kind that's wrapped in coconut leaves) with a quarter of a kilo of brown sugar, that i made a syrup out of. gawk. my boy is the cutest. haha. at times he'd snap. tell me i'm waaaay makulit/pesky. and when i'd tell him i wanted to cry cuz i'd be home alone, he'd say, my girlfriend is a cutie pie.. :) noone has ever called me such.. Lord hold on to me..