absurdity is my lot

i can't tweet enough to say that i've have been in an awful mood for more than a number of days. i'm not blaming anyone cuz it's me who controls my thoughts. yeah, other people can drain the energy in me but, then again it's how i respond to the situation that would matter.

exclusively seeing someone is not always a blast- when you don't know when that someone will snap out of his strange, indifferent ways. i've been told it will take time and i tell myself be patient. well, i'm getting the hang of this and is somehow enjoying it. WTO. fuckyeah. and fuckyeah-keyword patience.

and as of late, i only want THE TRUTH.

made career change plans. as they say, live life like a dream. ♥ if one thing in your life falls off , you can always look at it from another angle. so the dreamy part there is getting to travel before i hit 30. i wish God would permit it.


and yeah, i found the blog of my absolute girl crush- damak arte so alice girl in her twenties.

to avoid epileptic fits and girlfriend insecurities, i placed myself on a facebook ban. noone will notice my absence and i think this will put me in a better place- non-social networking place.

if only multiply's not blocked in the office, i would rather multiply than facebook. haha. or i'd even friendster. lol.


i wish the boyf would take me to church this Sunday, if he wouldn't it'll be cool. i can always ask someone out or take myself out. one thing i learned in between moving cities is to be able to be self-sufficient. and not be a wussy. when there's someone to take you out, go with that person and indulge yourself with the company. however, alone time is a great time to fall in love with yourself.

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birthday wishlist- very early. ☺

lush massage bar- the wintergreen/peppermint kind
a chanel lipstick- in red
a pink rusco truck
and a canon camera that has manual adjustments looks like a tinier version of the dslr
holga and lomo cams and disposables
and to learn a new skill- driving

lists makes me happy; even though most part of this crazy alice-ridiculous list might not be materialized sooner.

haha, alice in wonderland reminds me of a little boy named kim kim in chineseschool, we both topped the film viewing quiz cuz we both nailed "Walrus" down.

oh gradeschool. (sweet.)

i really miss the boy i met in january 30. where are you love? haha.



in wonderland,

Rae Anne