follow friday

my woebegone mood's totally went away now. although, it sucks to go to work tonight as keken is still awake and i haven't had spent enough time with the little one lately. i miss wyndell adrien. two days. of absence wow. i wonder how long distance relationships survive. i wanted to do a hash tag follow friday on twitter, but it felt more like freaky friday when i got to work. as i weaved my way out of our gate, the neighbor's post light went off, then through the corner of my sleepy street, another light went off as i passed by. haha. it seems like they're saying that they're canceling valentine's this year. lol. having our schedule painted at work is a bone to pick on. and doing this Apple(Mac) retraining is another one. i keep saying God is stripping you off of your security blankets to make sure that you hold on to Him securely. it's been going inside my head the past few days. i feel lonely. people must not dismiss loneliness cuz you know, it'll end up screwing you. some days, yes i wanna fork myself. or microwave my head. haha. i awfully miss my sisters too. dich is just there but, i miss going to the malls or fast food with her and keken. i look forward to tomorrow's after the doctor date. perhaps we'd have shakey's bunch of lunch- all our comfort food in one plate- a classic or yellow cab pepperoni pizza and raspberry sola. i miss shobe and her capriciousness and the way we were size 0 and 1. i miss ma and pa and dating them in ayala. see, i am really lonesome. on the other hand- God's been wonderful, steadfast in His love for me. daily despite the madness i go through, He gives me consistency, with friends, with my loved ones, and with work. i don't think i've asked for a life altering new year (it's chinese new years btw), all i've asked of Him before the year ended was consistency and if there's a new learning experience for me, i'd wish for it to be verrrrrrrrrrry awfully materialistic- like jp morgan and travel. ü sana travel will be given for the 28th birthday. i think i'd be less over OA.