good girls don't finish last.

i badly need a hug right about now. other people can be so tactless that they make me angry at times and wanna tell them to leave me alone. i don't want to blog about it but, really you don't tell a person she is easy (or something to that effect) and makes an effort to win a guy. una, i wind up dating a guy normally by crazy chances. and windup either breaking my heart or breaking the guy's heart because of yet another crazy circumstance.. i see people or wind up with someone new naturally because i know that i am pretty. if i am not anything like beautiful, i would hide myself in a bat cave and not see anyone. i mean if they are inggit, why can't they just bid for a date? that would seem more legit. number 2, i am not sure if i am driving my point home, why would girls seem to give friendly advise only to make you feel bad about yourself? and number 3, i always believed that i have the right to be pursued. so i don't go after ppl cuz going after ppl won't do you well in the end. i may be liberal with some things about a relationship but, a gal should always act as TO BE and a boy should be a TO DO. so in anyway, it's always like dut with me since forever. at times when i think about mark and i and this relationship i think people would go for a killing to have it. sayang. you can't have something like this when you are not me. and i don't have to explain to people how i got myself a good guy. heller. it's apparent that i am a good girl too. chaka. powtanginang pms. it's hard to be a daughter and a grandaughter too. and harder to be a sister. or moreover, harder to be understanding of what i am supposed to be with the mark and i circle. at times, i just wish i don't implore the help of other people way too much and keep things between us two cuz we can work things out amongst ourselves. naboybosit ako today. some people are plainly ill-mannered, chismosa, bastos. i told him today or yesterday that i most of the time do not pay attention if people try to bastos me cuz all i see is him and other people i cared about like my family and gal pals. others, with their sickeningly low lives pale in comparison to who i have. kainish. sana girls can stick up their powdered noses for other girls and not bring other gals down. girl power. haha.