not cool.

He wouldn't hear her words. She doubted he'd hear her silence, either. -- Girls in Pants: The Third Summer of the Sisterhood by Ann Brashares. i wonder why mark would sound so deprecating or self righteous. i am very candid with my emotions i.e. when upset, etcetera, i'm supposed to let the nasty remarks about me go cuz it's not true and i know wut's true however for him to be unfair and ask me to train my tongue/watch my words is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay fetch and makainis. and i kinda wanted to choose my battles correctly now. i'm not in high school where it's fine when you are belligerent. i'm okay with backstab sessions and parinig and me carelessly ranting about my mishaps and washing my dirty linens, who cares? & with ppl like mowgli's teammates, i am angered because they pass judgement before even knowing who i am(as some friends also deprecate me in 5 little silly adjectives with the excuse of knowing me or thinking i am too sensitive which i overlook because they're friends) nonetheless i could not care less. i only cared about mowgli. putanginang truth. in bullets: wednesday- sick leave bwaha. thursday- saw valkyrie(great movie, bad scary ost), he took me home- vl day 1 friday- astronaut, t*ts were too swollen to even move, too tired, too over OA upset(pms is tat you?)- vl day 2 saturday- valentine's dates: kenji and dich lunch at shakey's, ken being my 2nd time date, 2007 and 2009. 2008 am somewhere over the pacific ocean going back to pi. gelo called. nagdadrama kami both. i so love it, ay him diay.. food shopping! love! magastos ang bituka mo when sad. or happy with family but sad cuz some ppl decide to be astronaut. sunday- skipped church. walang kuryente and stayed home. how coohool. monday- with dich at cvg na wala natandog sa rhinestones ko, gala and shopping and coffee(nyaha, nagstarbucks ko liwat nga di libre) with mareng cookie. friends keep a girl sane. :) tuesday- first day in class. huge. 19 kids. one sushal, i like. i am opting to leave the nasty incident of today out. i hope that putanginang loser rots in his 31 year old life.. salamat sa twindom for the marlboro red. the shopping list from monday: 1. knock-off victoria's secret berry kiss- can you believe tat? 2. maybelline pressed powder, finally a new compact.. 3. same dress in diff color with cookie 4. books on sale- max lucado and hell hath no fury(compilations of breakup letters).. 5. thrifted purse.. God's awesome. i am not. and it's okay. ♥