run, faint

well. something's are well. mark david asked me to read ephesians. he seems to not get way past ephesians whilst i got stuck with daniel and his interpretations of dreams. i could not tell him, hey, read daniel. cuz i am sure despite the fact that daniel is really a character, he would've read daniel. or there's no quote worthy message there except ones that speak of burning furnace, vegetables, and lions. twenks. so in the effort to sound impressive wala gyd ko maisip to share to him. and maybe, possibly amu na nga wala cuz instead of sharing God i try to share me. try to impress him with me, which defeats the whole purpose of glorifying God cuz i swerve the focus to me. ayan. ARE YOU EXHAUSTED SPIRITUALLY? "The everlasting God . . . fainteth not, neither is weary." Isaiah 40:28 Exhaustion means that the vital forces are worn right out. Spiritual exhaustion never comes through sin but only through service, and whether or not you are exhausted will depend upon where you get your supplies. Jesus said to Peter - "Feed My sheep," but He gave him nothing to feed them with. The process of being made broken bread and poured out wine means that you have to be the nourishment for other souls until they learn to feed on God. They must drain you to the dregs. Be careful that you get your supply, or before long you will be utterly exhausted. Before other souls learn to draw on the life of the Lord Jesus direct, they have to draw on it through you; you have to be literally "sucked," until they learn to take their nourishment from God. We owe it to God to be our best for His lambs and His sheep as well as for Himself. Has the way in which you have been serving God betrayed you into exhaustion? If so, then rally your affections. Where did you start the service from? From your own sympathy or from the basis of the Redemption of Jesus Christ? Continually go back to the foundation of your affections and recollect where the source of power is. You have no right to say - "O Lord, I am so exhausted." He saved and sanctified you in order to exhaust you. Be exhausted for God, but remember that your supply comes from Him. "All my fresh springs shall be in Thee." from oswald chambers. if he is alive, he'd be the minister in my wedding. haha. - and when i sometimes try so hard to share with mark the little that i know i wind up exhausted. so it boils down to God being able to supply me with enuf knowledge about Him if i pursue Him first. and today, i kinda realize that if i fell too hard for mark, i'm sure i'm gonna end up crying and being hurt if i lost him, kaso with the stuff(Jesus freak stuff) dut i learned from mark, if i lost him, i will not wind up really LOST. 1 more day before VL. we thought we can go out tomorrow but, i told him i still have work. mashado shang giddy with excitement. bwaha. - i resolve to run to be more patient when answering people to make promises(to mark) that i would keep. to save. to buy nazel her christmas gift. bwahahahaha. reading for tonight: ephesians 4: 14-27 -amongst the happier things today. being puff the magic dragon with cukay and nazlita cucharita, libak session with cucharita's friends from priceline. waaaaaaaaaaaaaah. daw makalipay at times manlibak. but, really, wut will i get when i bring ppl down? ummmmmmmmm, mom.. haha.. anyway, i still am on my hating spree when it comes to that girl who feels like she's a serena character. yawn lang.. -and siopao asado that costs 12php lang for merienda at home. street siopao. makahappy! -i was tired when i got home slept a full 5 hours. w/c is really great and then woke up lightheaded and mowgli wind up kuliting me. and me on film grain/cinemascope. bwaha. so much for pmsing.