the world fascinates me.

there are certain days when you feel bad about yourself.. and today is one of them days.. hence, the post title(to jolly me out of this sour mood).. this city is not like cebu that you can past by the french baker and you'd feel wonderfully better cuz heads would turn as you pass by(gals try it when in that city, it works wonder for a bruised ego).. - i've finally spoken with jeremy.. about my predicament revolving around the job.. on most days i feel like the world should rotate around me, am quite right however at times it stops circling around me and decides to headbutt me.. today's one of those days (again).. whilst at home, i realized how awful my whining can be at times.. if it were a sport, it would've made me the champion.. and God is odd how He spoils me, i may have heart-wrenching times but, i do normally get what i want.. specifically when i say it out loud.. sometimes small things i list down on my wish list such as watercolours, sketchpads, a bottle of glue, etceteras, to big things such as a new job, a city to learn from, a new jericho to topple.. God gives in surprisingly hilarious/eccentric ways.. - i will resolve to save starting march.. as i will be 27 and i am excited to turn 27.. i've always thought that when i turn 28 i should be preggers and be a mom and gelo and i already had names for our baby, crazy names like sandrine or mika, and lately, i've been feeling baby envy.. and how i adore cookies' girls and would love to have my mini photocopies as well.. then tonight, while pushing kenji's bike cuz his tiny feet can't pedal properly and teaching him to kick patrick starfish as he memorized his numbers and abcs on his charts, i kinda thought that i am happy being baby envious cuz there are other things such as shopping! - slept almost half the day til cookie called and asked me to catch up in sm.. i wind up getting two pairs of shoes(yes, it's not a great purchase if you'd just buy great shoes on sale and you'd only get one..else don't buy any nalang..) and another laced top that's the same as the grey top i got last weekend, only this time it's hot pink.. :) cookie got a dress that's like mine, colour reminds me of cantaloupe/honey dew melon.. all from bayo.. as twins we have the same affinity for bayo and i am happy that we share the same liking for the store.. of course, i added 1k++ debt to my debtors and next payday i will drown.. luckily i don't have credit cards and luckily my friends have credit card and i can shop on their credit limit.. kfc late lunch.. jun2x caught up with us and we looked for lucky stones/crystals.. i wind up getting a lotus citrine bracelet not for prosperity chennelin but, because the flower is very pretty.. and we saw mowgli.. i thought it was fun to play hide and seek.. or astronaut.. - today i learned that it's easy to detach yourself from something that you want badly when you physically remove yourself from that something.. and so, i will ban myself from malls.. or just bring 150php when i will go with cookie and nazel to church on sundays as the church is conveniently stationed at the mall.. ;p - packed half way for pata-an.. i don't know about my costumes.. i don't want to look yagit tomorrow.. i invited myself to beb's team building.. ;p quotes from the virgin suicides: Ohh.. look at those girls..they have a bright future ahead of them, the other one was just gonna end up on crack anyway.. We felt the imprisonment of being a girl... “We couldn't imagine the emptiness of a creature who put a razor to her wrists and opened her veins, the emptiness and the calm.” i want the book. i want middlesex too. i want. bleh. happy weekend!