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And then there are always clever people about to promise you that everything will be all right if only you put yourself out a bit... And you get carried away, you suffer so much from the things that exist that you ask for what can't ever exist. Now look at me, I was well away dreaming like a fool and seeing visions of a nice friendly life on good terms with everybody, and off I went, up into the clouds. And when you fall back into the mud it hurts a lot. No! None of it was true, none of those things we thought we could see existed at all. All that was really there was still more misery-- oh yes! as much of that as you like-- and bullets into the bargain! Germinal, Emile Zola past couplah days.. thursday- birthday lunch with nazel and cookie at home.. dich made pasta.. and more of the cheesecake.. i ODd on the pills again.. officially i feel like i am crackin'.. kenji had a mishap with the door and his fingers were really bruised.. kalooy.. but, the cutest still.. friday- went out with dich and cpus and keken.. kfc lunch.. dich and i bought dresses from bayo.. i got a ruched tube top in mustard whilst dich got something good for work.. and yes, i am guilty for overdoing the shopping lately.. i will stop na..and i got a new book cuz dich was pestering me to get a new one.. a chicklit- welcome to the real world.. i don't even know who wrote it.. dich just asked me to get it cuz she needs reading materials at home.. saturday- bus station with cpus and nanay.. hayers.. i don't want to be emotional about this.. but, growing up is a pain.. loving a family member is easier when they're cities away.. dich and i walked around shopping to find kuppa, it's still closed so we ended up having breakfast at mcdo.. - i'm not sure if impatience, uber-sensitivity get the best of me.. i don't like myself too much when i call the person i cared about names.. kaso i guess it's about time i sever relationships with people who don't value me at all.. or who tells me that they cared but, are really doing/showing otherwise.. i'm not a mindreader. and it's kapoy to put up with plans that are in reality non-commital plans.. kapoy put myself out for the heartache.. and yes, my birthday is on the 12th.. not the 21st.. xoxo