this peppery summer heat..

i jogged. a good 25 minute.

and thought that it would've been best if i brought my sketchpad.. the lagoon is filled with interesting faces and some would even stare so hard at me that i would freak out and stop running.. wut's funny is the fact that i brought nazel's bar of toblerone and ate it whilst running..and i am panting and licking my fingers with sticky chocolate..what a sight!

cookie gave kenji a purple umbrella with powerpuff girls' blossom printed on one side.. and a slice of bloom's birthday cake and spongebob stickers.. the little one was sooo happy he was screaming the whole time..

some things are not working out as expected but, it's all right..

lately, i've been feeling tired.. i am happy i wind up interested in running.. my legs would hurt and i am almost dizzy from the lack of sleep however, it keeps me on goal.. to do something and not procastinate.. at first i thought it's about being Ana looking then realized that it's a good commitment to self.. somehow teaching me a bit of self-discipline..

i still have to organize the clutter from the trainer's lounge.. maybe a bit later..

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i remembered my copy of how to make an american quilt.. i don't know where i placed it.. sighs.. i might need to brush up on reading..

it's good that noone badgers me at work now.. if they might one day say hey move, i'm going to be okay loitering here.. then would move away.. i wonder why God gives difficult people who even if they don't intentionally do it, they try to break your spirit, put grey clouds.. anyway, people who cared about you does that too, break you and hurt you what more pa people who don't care about you?

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and now, i realized that i have to choose my words carefully or vent out only when necessary.. as i might want to make a commitment to Him that whatever my hands find to do, i might do it to glorify and honor Him and possibly bless others too.. and now, i am just rotting away lang..

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and it doesn't feel too lonely in the night shift as trisha is around and some gals who i thought weren't nice are now treating me nicely, makes other things in tp look bland in comparison.. :)

my camera is broken. :( tears. - tonight's quiet time.. igo gyd ko.. Peter realizes now with the revelation of the Lord's hurting question that he does love Him; then comes the point - "Spend it out." Don't testify how much you love Me, don't profess about the marvellous revelation you have had, but - "Feed My sheep." And Jesus has some extraordinarily funny sheep, some bedraggled, dirty sheep, some awkward, butting sheep, some sheep that have gone astray! It is impossible to weary God's love, and it is impossible to weary that love in me if it springs from the one centre. The love of God pays no attention to the distinctions made by natural individuality. If I love my Lord I have no business to be guided by natural temperament; I have to feed His sheep. There is no relief and no release from this commission. Beware of counterfeiting the love of God by working along the line of natural human sympathy, because that will end in blaspheming the love of God.. from utmost..

edits: 2 lunches. mark and johnny. work/nonwork gives me the reason to stay in tp. haha.