i'd really love to try

skipped church. for some awful reason. and i felt more awful cuz no stars were out tonight. God seemed more distant. my fault, i know. parang He actually sang "closer" to me a few days back and i thought i understood. then now, i find my way groping thru darkness cuz i lit a torch for myself and only to burn and have blistered fingers or heart if i can say it correctly.

but, i am not that sad nah.. i actually think i am doing okay..

If you want my love, well you’ve got to get close to me

Ooh, if you want my love…

I don’t understand why we can’t get close enough

I want your kite strings tangled in my trees all wrapped up

I don’t understand why we can’t get close enough

I’ll be the comets that are fallin from the sky you light up..(mga garapon sa lapok..)

of the happier things:

-food shopping with dichee at robibinson's sunday afternoon

-watching simba's pride and not sleeping today.. gosh.. how i loved those lions..

-today, kenji being really extra sweet to me.. and seeing him materialize independence by feeding himself with peanuts, holding his glass of tea/water/coke.. what love!

-saturday night and kissing. lots of it. haha. and i can take this down later.. a summer fling is always the best tan you can get.. (sin-o ako, ngaa ari ko di?)

-of today still.. finishing pomegranate soup although i tried to read it as slowly as i can so i can absorb, enjoy, know the characters more closely.. pero, you really can't put a good book down.. i love marjan.. i wish i can go to iran.. or well, maybe morrocco, tangier.. tangier dreams..

-starbucks date with the gals.. :)

-dressing up that saturday..

oh well. i am having one heck of a monday already.. i will go back to running.. my closet and the seemingly endless "shrunk" clothes are depressing..

"When you hurt people, they begin to love you less. That's what careless words do. They make people love you a little less."

- Arundhati Roy

is that the same with God? i hope not. and i know He isn't some child who saw an ant hill and toppled it.. haaaaaaay.

photo: latest photo of our dearest kairi.. she is love..