my invisible monsters

"Like as the waves make towards the pebbled shore, / So do our minutes hasten to their end." (world made by hand-james howard kunstler) plagued with paranoia, distrust, insecurity, and jumpiness these days.. i think i should cut back on caffeine.. i've things of happiness listed though: -kenji and i sharing glasses and glasses of strawberry iced tea and junk food.. -white flower, how i feel better about everything when i have it.. -dichee and i chikatime when she got home, then worrying over budget, then complaining about being an adult, then telling me not to get pregnant.. grr.. -seeing mark david tomorrow.. yehey.. kaso basi mabyuda nako.. ;( -trisha wanting me to wear dresses with her and chika minutes too.. -dressing alike with cookie.. ;p i've excel something today.. i registered late, don't know if i can make it to that class.. God seemed a bit distant lately too.. hay.. sin fishes me out.. malala ako lately.. and i don't like myself as much too.. haaaaaaaaaaayers.. sana sueldo na..or madaog ko lottery.. mga 100 million.. haha.. got to join excel class.. excel's tough.. and i am happy being an excel ditz.. haha..