the incidentals..

amongst the tsotchkes of the weekend.. saturday: pata-an for 400 pesoses! and not knowing any of the team members of bebs when i boarded the bus then memorizing everyone of them before going back to the city.. am not sure what's more heartbreaking, sai sai and rai breaking up or me being there without angelo this time.. aiwan.. kevs.. real heartbreak is the lens error i find in my nikon digi.. sighs.. sunday: went out with dich(sm).. i finally got the brown bikini's pair.. it's a brown tankini from kamiseta.. on sale! gleeeeeeeeeeeeee. i am not too sure if i can save like i can jog or do yoga without panting..and got me jogging shorts to inspire me to jog at least 3 times a week.. haha.. supposed to go out with cookie today for coffee and bring along bloom and trini and feed the fishes at bob's.. we cancelled last minute.. it's bloom's birthday too.. -- and oh, tonight's ellen's birthday, her 28th sana.. and jovel's death anniversary, me thinking twice, but, dich mentioned jovel while we were talking about other people.. and it crossed me that i lost 2 good friends around my birthday.. yoga day today.. i lasted for a good 15 minutes with hoola hoops in between.. tas gave up.. i am running tomorrow.. - and will quit smoking na.. no matter wut.. cuz one guy observed that i smoked too much, i didn't even notice that i was smoking anything that i could find on the table.. i miss sharing a pack of camel with gelo.. then again, i've blisters on my tongue that lasted a couplah days.. i thought it's about time that i quit.. doing things badly can be great from time to time.. but, am getting good at smoking na.. so end of the affair na no matter how anxious, hurt, broken, oa i am feeling, i will not reach for another stick of cigarette na.. :) -- and in the hopes of lifting me out of the grey clouds.. whilst it's true that some good things never last, some don't even start.. so tandaan.. :P at times it doesn't feel okay, at times okay lang man diay.. so kevs nalang sa mga taong nr, indifferent, or too busy.. some things are a beautiful let down.. and yofaks na jud go thru sa ugggggggggggh moments.. as i am going thru it now.. - "She turned her face seaward to gather an impression of space and solitude, which the vast expanse of water, meeting and melting with the moonlit sky, conveyed to her excited fancy. As she swam, she seemed to be reaching out for the unlimited in which to lose herself." the awakening. lovelove and working it, Raen