summer and being monday..

i think i'm boycotting church for the mean time.. cuz i've been really bad over the weekend.. so until i'm clearly thinking then i might go back.. and yet, cookie and i attended service yesterday with bloomim in a pretty red polka dot white dress.. she was passionate about her why 10 percent take on tithing whilst i still am considering the matter as something to be pored over/ studied before really saying no.. anyway, i don't tithe.. so kevs.. i'm still in bacolod.. happily.. :P talked to gelo.. supposed to meet him for coffee tomorrow.. nagpapalibre, wala'y ulaw.. but, i kinda wanna see him and say hi, and check how long did he grow his hair, whether he can hold it on a ponytail holder.. aiwan.. then i said something stupid and we both had sige nalang spiels.. oa ah.. anyway, today, dich set me up with some guy from her work place.. i don't know what to feel when dich kai-shaos me with other people.. or when friends play cupid.. cuz it smothers me most times.. kenji's extra lovey dovey today.. he'd smile a lot, wrestle with me, hug me, he even let me play airplane with him(he rides on my legs and i lift him and we'd both say airplane, he says ay-plane..). and he'd lemme kiss him.. siguro he knows i'm both happy and sad and i'd need his attention.. hehe.. She was experiencing the same odd happiness and odd sadness as then. The sadness meant: we are at the last station. The happiness meant: we are together. The sadness was form, the happiness content. Happiness filled the space of sadness. - The Unbearable Lightness of Being, Milan Kundera that quote made me think about how mark david makes me feel.. happy and sad altogether.. there are such people who are in your life that can make you feel that way diay.. i sometimes wish that he would just make me feel sad the whole time until i would just go away.. yawn lang.. his lesson over the weekend was self control.. told him magulang sang self control is patience, na cousin sang wait.. hehe.. sana we both learned..