..heart of worship

for whatever it's worth, i started testifying and discipling again. maybe i can't call the past 2 tries discipling. but now with nazel i am gonna try my testimony not to glorify myself but to win just one soul for Him. one soul is enough. and i'll work on it. i told mark my testimony to gelo wasn't founded on strong grounds because we were living together and had an adult relationship. i cannot win him over because we were sinning. sayang. i am distraught at the thought of not winning gelo cuz i love him with all my heart. and that's the truth. i don't harbor any hatred for him altho hurt can overcome me most times. i wanted him saved. i want nazel saved too. she is a great friend. despite the quick tongue. like mine. despite the maldita mode, like me. i am grateful for the opportunity cuz she came asking. i wasn't prepared to tell her about asking Christ. and receiving Him- much like the way that I , my sisters, my friends from gradeschool and mark received Him. i'd want her to experience that too.. so tonight, i shared the devotional for january 24 from streams in the dessert. about waiting for God's time to answer prayers, to display physical manifestation of His promises and answers, and to pray. we kinda have the same prayer.. although, God would've wanted to restore relationships, but, i would also remember that fact that we do not unequally yoke with the unbelievers and likewise Jesus did not come to bring peace but to break families and relationships. those who will follow must follow on the self same day.. i cannot walk blameless until i confess that i myself is sinful. i told mark about wut happened yesterday, when i acted with belligerence & was really haughty. he tells me about training the tongue. and our pet sins. and i trusted sharing my pet sins to him as well. i never knew that in due time i can be courageous enuf to tell a believer how tainted i am when the whole time i kinda felt i might lose his friendship. and it was never that way for him. readings: proverbs 10:19-20 proverbs 12:18 proverbs 17:20 proverbs 18:21 proverbs 21:23 james 3 i am uber grateful that God finally gave me the chance to have this experience with nazel and mark and have this written down. finally, my one step at a time..