me and my lovely circumstance

i am stuck in a really awful predicament today. uno, i might eventually get the job that dichee wants- altho i pray that she gets it cuz she needs it. i need it too but, i can't just leave my job like that cuz i have rent and maybe things will be looking up for me these days if i do get transitioned to us101 program. i hope. second. altho the new scene is tempting and fringe benefits and it's gonna be a whole lotta work which will be good for my spirit and my eternal stagnation, i honestly do not know wut to do now.. mark made me read galatians 2:16-21. i cudnt figure out the chapter until i realized that i'm reading the king james version- mark is old school when it comes to faith. i am old school when it comes to songs like sunday school songs- i know THAT much.. and i can sing it.. :) going back to my situation, am told to pray for things. i told him i will pray for discernment so i'd know wut to do and he advised me not to rush.. well, grace like rain falls. God's grace will totally cover me despite the fact that i might still sink my toes in the prairie lands and not somewhere sunny like boracay or st. tropez (i don't even know where this is..).. and yeah wut i got from mark's quiet time tonight.. if righteousness if governed by man's laws, then Christ's dying doesn't serve a purpose.. and as Christians we live not by our good deeds but by faith in Christ Jesus.. one day it will come to make more sense.. my day did not make sense since i got the call.. i sent mike the letter i made last year. told him i saw it in my sent mails.. he told me he waited.. it's funny how i think about waiting.. wut if you waited for the wrong things, wrong persons, wrong jobs? and my incoherence is making me write a baloney. good night world. "The world moves for love; it kneels before it in awe". Edward Walker, in The Village (wahahaha. apt quote.) Why are people always so thrilled to hear horrible news? Does hearing about other people's misfortune feed some sort of twisted, morbid hunger inside us? Are we humans or overgrown vultures in trendy clothes? - SVH Senior Year: Boy Meets Girl, Francine Pascal