the last time i said uh-oh affected you..

All this happened, more or less. - SlaughterHouse-Five by Kurt Vogennut gawd i feel shitty. according to chuvaness the 19th of this month would be the most depressing day down in history. no wonder i felt crappy yesterday. despite cakes at calea with dich, save babysitting kenji for about an hour cuz i was truly happy and well just a bit miserable.. dyo know wut happens to a girl who is so miserable on a saturday? she sleeps all day and doesn't find a good reason to wake up for small group.. i missed my small group for 2 straight meetings now. sighs. i'm too sleepy, depressed, or both. sunday, i did not know mowgli would get out of the village sooner than i. kaguilty calling him mowgli. but, he to me is mowgli and am tired of the hyperventilating stints. okay. payday and i guess it's still shitty. i have some other things to look forward to though.. 1. dating sally's brother. w/c i think is not the neatest idea cuz i am not the neediest girl. just tanga. 2. this whole us101 thingy. 3. the morning shifts with mareng cookie.. :) 4. missing nazel. hahaha. 5. the thought of a bible study/fellowship at home--------for my sister and for the mermaid and the grandmother. eventually the mother i hope.. this i wanna pass on to the kids cuz eventually they must learn to know Christ like how we got to know Him when me and the sisters were younger.. 6. opening an lbp account.. in proverbs (forgot the verse) it says that money saved little by little grows by a number. :) 7. weekend small group.. when mark came by sunday, he gave me the bible study guide of his family. little did i know that it's gonna be the end of the whole thing. maybe he is yofax with my drama when i told him to just go away. or he was plainly weirded out by my jealous fits.. in any way, the guide's title is: what is it to you? i read john maybe 4 times to understand what it meant.. in the end, i realized that the clay could not question the potter what He will fashion the clay into. like how i had been asking why mark could not understand wut i feel about the whole cabbage patch fondness that i have for him and why whenever he wud ask me why i am acting out each time the coffee beanery girl is mentioned i shut up and cover my face with a pillow. (that's wut happened sunday and the last time..) it's not so bad after all. at some point during the day though, i feel really terrible. but, i can live this down. there. my sour graping/sweet lemoning talk. happy work week.